2021-09-23

It Would Be Funny, But

So, reference my convo with SWMBO's Doc yesterday: St. Michael's Hospital in Silverdale won't let my see my dieing wife, Social Media posts, etc.

Well, today her Doc talked to her about "probably" transferring her to a facility in Tacoma that specializes in pulmonary rehab and wouldn't that be great to go to!? Truthfully, she doesn't need to be in the hospital for covid anymore; but still needs the high flow O2 to keep her blood O2 up. So, it probably wouldn't be a bad idea. And supposedly (sorry: subposibly) they do specialize in pulmonary.

But, Tacoma? I hate driving to/thru Tacoma. With a passion. When we go on trips that take us towards Portland I always go through Shelton and Olympia instead of Tacoma. Driving through Tacoma is like getting to a throat via the anus.

AND there still may be a "No Visitors" rule at the new place. But, St. Michael's would rather I bothered the other place than them.

However, one wonders if this decision was because I was getting pushy about being able to actually visit my wife and made some pretty serious "threats?"

I still believe St. Michael's No Visitors rule is there just because it's easier for them. Fuck the patients and their families. We don't want to deal with it. One of the things they told me through their actions is that even they believe masks don't work. Think about it.

We'll see what happens. As long as SWMBO gets better and gets home I'm okay with whatever needs to be done.

Did make a trip to the hospital today to drop some things off for her. Nail clippers being one. The low level employee at the greet desk told me "We don't accept nail clippers!" I told her she'd better check with whom ever she needed to check with cause I was told to bring them down. She had me see a slightly higher low level employee who called the nurse on the floor and asked her about it. All I said was "I was told to bring them down and drop them off."

Nurse from the floor said she'd be right down. And she was. Took the plastic bag with the stuff for SWMBO NQA. I didn't mention to anyone that it was SWMBO who told me to bring them down. Joke 'em if they can't take a fuck.

Got caught in traffic on the way home. 1430 and traffic. Don't you people have jobs!?

Baked tater topped with chili, chopped onions, and Mexican 4-cheese for dinner. Someday I'll make someone a great wife. Probably out of crushed aluminum cans cause I have a butt-ton of those.


2021-09-22

Wednesday?

Ever notice how your girl will sit in a chair in the Mall and let
another girl poke holes in her earlobes with only a grimace, yet a
fingertip in her butthole "Hurts too much so stop it?" Just wondering.

Not really. Read somewhere that your opening should grab folks interest
and you can let them down from there.

So, went to my first interview for jury duty. Lawyers asked me all kinds
of questions; but the one that stuck out was "Do you believe in the
death penalty?"

"I sure do." Says I. "If it's proven beyond a shadow of a doubt and the
crime warranted it."

"Warranted? What kind of crimes would 'warrant' taking another person's
life?"

"Oh, rape and especially rape of a child. Outright murder especially if
planned before hand but not as an accident. Any General committing
Treason. Voting for Biden or any Democrat."

I was rejected.

Probably can't fly anywhere now either.

SWMBO video called today and put her Doc of the week on. He filled me
in. Nothing new. They completed the covid meds and are working on the
lung damage. She's still at high flow O2 but they're going to try to
wean her off it. Still no guesses as to when she'll get to come home.
Pulmonary embolism is doing okay.

Told him that I had taken the Hippocratic oath some time ago and firmly
believe in the "Do no harm" for most of my life. However, I'm also
thinking that when you put someone in the hospital suddenly, hook them
up to machines, and everyone around them is behind a mask, face shield,
gown and gloves, you really don't promote getting healthy. You do
promote feelings of loneliness and being overwhelmed.

And that I want to physically visit my wife even though they have a "No
Visitors" policy.

Told him to pass it on up the line to his superiors that they have a
husband who wants to visit his wife, and, that if he doesn't get to see
her really soon he WILL start posting "St. Michael's Hospital in
Silverdale, WA won't let me see my dieing wife" to all the social media
sites. Then, the next day by 1000 I would show up with a large sign
saying that and sit across from the opening to their driveway with said
sign and when the News folks show up (which I'd invite them) I'd repeat
the "St. Michael's Hospital in Silverdale, WA won't let me see my dieing
wife" and invite everyone that has a loved one in the hospital they
haven't been able to see, or had one of their family members die without
being able to visit them beforehand to join me.

You NEED to pay attention to me cause I don't make idle threats. I
rarely make "threats."

So we'll see where that one goes.

Sure, I understand the why; but it's stupid because it doesn't address
the problem as individuals. I've had the vaccine and the covid. I have
no other infectious diseases. SWMBO is covid free so there's no way she
can re-infect me and there is No Way I'll get reinfected walking past a
covid patients room with their door closed. So, why can't I see her?
Because of the blanket "No Visitors" policy.

Sorry it had to come to threats. Or promises in this case.

2021-09-21

Sorry About The Last Post

The new Pulmonary Embolism, Bi-pap, and lack of more detailed info hit a
raw nerve. I'd have to admit that my nerves are on a knife edge anyway.

Finally got hold of her Nurse this morning and got her to agree to tell
SWMBO to CALL YOUR HUSBAND daily. Otherwise she says SWMBO is doing
okay. They've got her on 80 lbs O2 during the day (with a blood O2 of
low 80's) and the Bi-pap overnight. If she can get to 40 lbs and low
80's or better she can come home. So we're working on that.

But I did get TWO video calls today. Nice! I'm much relieved. Maybe I'll
sleep tonight.

I sure hope so.

Sometimes I wonder if AGE is making me Strange? More emotional.

Geez, I hope not.

2021-09-20

I Cannot Sleep

My lovely-young-bride of 35 years didn't call me tonight. Logging in and
reading her daily progress notes (with her permission!) I see where
they've had to put her on a bipap machine.

Having sleep apnea my self, I use a cpap machine that kicks in when I
haven't breathed in awhile.

Same for a bipap but more so. So, she isn't getting any better. She's at
the point she forgets to breathe.

Or, that's the way my mind works. Every time I lay down I go through all
the worst case scenarios.  Can't turn it off. And I can't fix this.

I want to talk to her Doc but it's midnight. I desperately want to ask
him Is My Wife Dieing? If she is then why are y'all still treating her
with what doesn't work? Maybe it's time to try something off the rails?
Something experimental?

Mostly I want them to let me in to see her.

I want to go hold her hand and tell her I love her still. I've always
loved her even if I didn't know it was her the first 32 years of my life.

Fuck.

Well, That Was Disappointing.

Drove to Home Depot in Silverdale to get 5 more of those 11" flush mount led lights; only to find not only does the store NOT have any, but, looking online it appears they don't carry it now at all. So I'll have to come up with another style of light to replace the 7 boob-lights in the tv/living/great room. I have 4 in the MILA that I could steal since we're going to be tearing out the ceiling and rewiring for new lighting anyway; but would still be one short. But I could luck out later and find one close enough no one would notice on the 12 ft ceiling. Dang! And I originally paid $9 for them "on sale."

Then I drove to the Walmart in East Bremerton to pick up some things for a cooking experiment and to peruse the new movie display. The selection of veggies and meats was so meager that I put the stuff I'd put in my basket back and went to WinCo. Where I spent $80 on duplicate spices (cause I have shit for brains memory problems) and other stuff. Bought wine for the first time in my life. All the Chefs I watch say not to buy the "cooking wines" but to get the real stuff. So I bought some of the real stuff.

A guy in a wheelchair helped me cause all I knew was I needed "red" wine. Ok. Red. Does the "pink" stuff count?

I quit drinking back in 1975 or so. Except for the occasional (once a year maybe) ice cold beer during summer. I was a beer drinker until it got warm (the beer) then would switch to whiskey & cokes until I got tired of those. Took about 28 or so though. Had many a night of crawling back to the ship and feeling like someone hung my rack sideways on the bulkhead. Glad I quit. (If only I had quit smoking at the same time. That's another story though.)

So, the experiment. I've had this Faberwear "Instant" Pot sitting in my cabinet for about a year (or more) that I've used once. Cooks with pressure. We all need pressure in our lives; I know.

So, thawed out a small steak and made the Instant Pot Roast (Best Ever - Literally) from Youtube substituting only two ingredients and, let me tell you, that steak melted (melted!) in my mouth. I have trouble chewing steak most times no matter how it's cooked. But this: Good! I'll be making this for SWMBO when she gets home from the hospital for sure.

Now I'm looking at more recipes and maybe a new pot or two (at least one smaller better suited for single person cooking).

Otherwise: SSDD. I'm feeling better physically. Except for the knees. The Old Knees.

But don't get me started.